Kentucky

my little hermano jordan has been gone for a total of 5 months. CRAZY! where has the time gone? but at the same time he still has a year and a half left. either way i am so proud of that little guy! he is doing such an incredible job and i have never heard him so happy! he is loving every minute and although i miss him i am grateful for the opportunity he has to share the gospel and grow!!! so a couple weeks ago he sent me a few pictures of kentucky. i did some editing (because i am addicted and he asked me to) and sent them back to him. here are a few shots of his current casa!

welcome to the motherland

so for a couple days i have felt the need to update my blog. i just wanted to find a worthy topic that would best describe my move and how i was feeling. so what it boils down to is that i am freezing. constantly. i have come to terms with the fact that my toes and fingers will not be the same for probably 3 more months (if i am lucky. even now as i glance at my hands i notice how purply (yes, that is a word that is used most frequently in any state east of california) and dry they have become. not something i am too pleased with. note.to.self. buy some heavy duty lotion. anyways today i decided to forget to look cute strapped on some jeans, REI socks, Ugg boots, sweatshirt (over 3 layers of t-shirts), a jacket and of course a scarf. yep still freezing. tomorrow i will dry spandex under my jeans with gloves and see if that makes a difference.

overall i like provo. shocked? i know. but i am pleasantly suprised.

good bye kathlean st.

warning. this post may be a little dramatic.

today i leave my home behind. i am one of those lucky people have had the same home my whole life. sure i moved away for a couple years but at the end of the day it has always been here waiting for me. lots of memories were shared here with my family and friends over the years. i have lived in the same room, second door on the left. and while it has been my home for the past 24 years of my life it has always been my place of refuge. regardless of what was going on in my life i could always escape to my fremont home and jump into my bed and know that i could find comfort there. one of the hardest parts about all of this is not leaving my home behind but leaving the people. i know people have come and gone over the years but i am different here. i feel like i am my complete self. i love the people here and they love me. no one passes judgement and i feel that i can be myself. what excites me the most about moving is also a fear of mine. i get to be whoever i want in utah. i can be my best self. and so while i am closing this chapter of my life here in fremont i know that a whole other one awaits me. there will be some big decisions and changes made in the next year of my life that i feel will change the direction of my life. and so farewell 41121 kathlean st. thank you for preparing me for this step out into reality. be nice to me world, i am a little vulnerable right now.